Where Have I Been?

I guess I took an unintended break from blogging. Work has been crazy and I’ve been too exhausted to have new words to formulate or really time to process or think about anything new.  But here’s some highlights (and lowlights) from the last two weeks.

  • I think I’ve been in it right now. I don’t know what I’m trying to process or work out, but I know that I’ve felt very melancholy. I think it might be everything with my parents/siblings, it’s been a rough month on that front for sure.
  • The best thing happened yesterday when we found out one of our bestest friend’s is moving a mere 95 miles away. (Okay, he’s really Taylor’s best friend but I like to pretend we’re buddies too) 😉 This is going to make California so much greater. Can’t wait for time hanging out in San Diego and for him to come visit us here. Gonna feel so much more like home.
  • I’m running/ working out more. It’s been great. I’m feeling stronger and better and healthier. All good things.
  • Work has been incredibly stressful and there have been some days and some situations that were incredibly hurtful, but I’m persevering in spite of the difficulty and I’m thankful for this job and for all it means for my family.

All in all, it’s been busy, stressful and yet there has been so much beauty and enjoyment that has come from working and from relationships and I can see more and more each day why this move to California was the best thing for us.

Taylor and I exclaiming our excitement for Fernando's arrival to California

Taylor and I exclaiming our excitement for Fernando’s arrival to California


Thoughts on Work

I’ve been at my new job about a month. I’m still getting the hang of things, but for the most part I feel like it is going pretty well.

This week I got to talk to a coworker who told me she not only thought I was doing a great job, but she thought this job is beneath me. While, I was greatly flattered that others see how hard I’m working to learn the ropes of my new job, I was taken back a bit by the idea that any job could be beneath me. She went on to discuss how my aptitude for this job and my skill level would be better suited in another position (presumably at a different company) where I would be paid more for my effort.

This is what I know. I know that almost all jobs are valuable and worth doing well. Even jobs with some seemingly mundane tasks deserve to be done and need to be done and glorify God in their completion. In fact, we need people to do this job and to do them excellently. Many of the hardest working people I know complete jobs that are seemingly full of mundane tasks and their pay isn’t exactly the kind of money you think about making when you leave college. But whether your a stay-at-home mom, a janitor or a neurosurgeon your job glorifies God in its completion.

Sure, it might seem like my life would be easy/richer/more fulfilling if I had a job that made more money, but to me that’s just a lie that I have to fight believing. So much of the messages we receive are about how much happier we would be if we could only (insert dream here) and some days it’s hard for me to fight this false message. Work is about more than money. Life is about more than what you can buy.

One Car Family

Taylor and I were a two-car family for about 3 years. This was so easy. It let us get where we both needed to go in a city with a severe lack of public transit. It also allowed us to do great things like help other car-less friends out. When we found out we were moving to California, we knew we’d be getting rid of Taylor’s car. It probably wouldn’t have made the move across America and also I affectionately only referred to it in expletives so I wasn’t very attached to it.

Having only one car to move into a state is much cheaper, we’re saving on the insurance and gas. It did mean that we needed to look for an apartment close enough that Taylor could bike to work and school like he did when we were a one car family in Tallahassee. This has, for the most part, been pretty easy for us. We like walking to some of the local shops close to our apartment and Taylor even walks to work most days. Walking isn’t the norm in Southern California, land of the freeway, and seems kinda strange to some. Having one car isn’t the easiest and sometimes, it does require help from a friend – like when your car is in the shop, but that’s what community is all about, right?

Having one car is cheaper, but that isn’t our only motivation. We’re concerned for the environmental impact of the standard two-car (or more) family. If every adult gets a car, I can’t possibly imagine the state of roads, traffic or the environment in a few years. Most of the people I know, don’t live in areas with great public transportation and many of our new friends drive pretty far for their jobs so I know having one car, might not work out for them but for us, making use of one car seems like the way to go for now and we’re excited to be slightly helping our environmental impact. We know we could be doing more but this is our start. Praying for better public transportation options in the future!

Life Stages

In the last week or two Facebook blew up with life changes – pregnancies, homes purchased, babies born. Much congratulations to all of these friends.

Anytime these seasons come where I’m celebrating these sort of next step life changes, I get a bit melancholy. Some days I am so glad to have this season to support Taylor during his schooling, to explore and travel, to study and learn before my life is blessed with the busyness of babies. I love having this time to help those that are in that season already.

But some days, if I let my mind wander, I get carried away by my desire to be in that stage already.  I fight myself wandering the baby section of Target when I know it’s not good for my head – and a bit of a waste of time. I know there is a time for everything and one day, I’ll realize how much I needed this season to prepare me for the one to come, but not every day is easy. Sometimes I just get impatient, but I know that waiting for the right timing for the things that are to come and even being okay with things not working out how I imagined is what’s best for me in the end.


Praying for Traffic

I know my blog has been  sparse this week. I haven’t been feeling so hot, but I’m slowly getting back into the swing of things.  

Most Sundays , on my way home from church I marveled at the lack of traffic. Sunday mornings are a fairly traffic free. While a lack of traffic is a novelty and seems like a great victory on any day in Southern California, I can’t help but be reminded that the lack of traffic is just another reminder that so few of my neighbors are traveling to churches. I know that some are attending churches Sunday evenings or even Saturday nights, but this is not the norm either.

I should be praying for more people to be traveling to churches. For full cars of friends, neighbors and families. For the gospel to reach this area.

But, I don’t pray for that. I am thankful for the ease the lack of traffic provides only emphasizing my true priorities and selfish orientations.

I’m going to try to make a conscious effort to reorient my thoughts and pray for traffic. Pray for more people to orient their lives in light of Christ’s love.