Overwhelmed & Overjoyed

Some days, like today, I am simply overwhelmed by my amazing husband. I think that means most days, I’m not thinking about the zillions of ways he blesses my life and how much I appreciate him. I should really work more to realize all the things he does every day.

Today, amidst miscommunication (completely my fault – due to an ambiguous text message), he surprised me at work with lunch because he thought I’d forgotten mine. He took his only break of the day to make sure I had lunch – even though I totally work in an environment where I could pick something up – but he knows that I’ve been too busy to get away for anything.

He is always humbly and graciously looking for opportunities to serve me. From an extra load of laundry to watching a TV show he isn’t as interested in, he is always using his time to love me and provide for me. The last two years, he’s worked so many hours at Starbucks to supplement our income, even though he would have rather spent those hours focused on grad school. He takes his job of taking care of me pretty seriously and it’s seriously awesome.

He’s basically the best and I’m so blessed he’s mine.

Taylor!

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On Hospitality

While watching HGTV and staring mesmerized at the gorgeous homes, I always hear the homeowners exclaim, “our home is too small. We need more space so we can have friends or family over.”

This isn’t really true and is an affront on the hospitality you can and (probably) should offer. Space should not dictate hospitality. Granted, in my cozy apartment, I probably can’t host 50 people, but I can be hospitable and open my home graciously to others.

I like to do this by hosting friends and family in our guest room (while we still have one).  Even if we didn’t have a guest room, which we didn’t always have, I try to open our apartment to guests with a comfy couch and a good meal.

Hosting friends for home cooked meals or holiday celebrations is a great way to be generous and loving to those you know.

Every gesture within your means to love those you know is important, even if that means someone has to sit on the floor or sleep on a couch. This are truly small sacrifices and the rewards of community are even greater.

The 25 List Update: June

I can’t believe it’s already June! I must confess this summer and its busy, crazy nature is not allowing me to focus on some of these goals the way I had planned, but all things come in seasons so I am really hoping to get back to this in the late summer/ early fall after the dust settles.

1. I’ve studied a bit of Spanish, but my studies have slowed as the summer has gotten busy.

3. My running has taken a beating with all the planning! Oops. Really wanting to get back to it.

6. I have fasted a few times – which is a couple more than I did last year but this still isn’t where I want it to be.

10. Still reading lots of novels, but I have slowed down as I’ve gotten busier this summer.

11. I am feeling less anxiety about the future, which is surprising – I have my tougher moments but I’m praying for the grace and peace of God in this season.

My goals for this month are mostly not involving this list and I’m starting to think about the real possibilities that I might not finish this list the way I’ve planned, but that’s life. Plans change.

On being a young adult

Adulthood comes in all different sizes and shapes these days.

You could be 17 and living on your own – making it paycheck to paycheck.

You could be 22 finishing college and moving back in to your childhood bedroom. Looking for any job.

You could be 25 finishing law school/grad school and thinking about your dreams for the future.

You could be 27 and still in college, still supported by generous parents.

You could be married. single. divorced. dating. (and a zillion other configurations these days)

You could be living with your significant other. living with (too many) roommates. living alone.

You could be 24. Moving across the country for your husband’s career. Scared/excited/nervous/balancing every penny.

Okay, that one is a bit specific.

You’re still an adult. You’re just trying to make it. *It’s difficult, but you’re just doing the best you can.

*If you aren’t actually doing the best you can: Shape up. You’re never gonna be 17, 22, 29, 36… again.

My Reads

I started my year with a goal to read more – specifically more fiction. This is what I’ve read this year so far. My favorites so far have been Gone Girl and The Storyteller. I couldn’t pick one, they’re both so different. I’d recommend them both.

Fiction

  • The Paris Wife by Paula McClain: enjoyed this one a good bit. Made me want to watch Midnight in Paris and sit at a French bakery and obviously go to Paris. Oh, and also read some Ernest Hemingway.
  • The Storyteller by Jodi Picoult: I’ve been reading Jodi Picoult novels for a long while and I love her style. This one is particularly good all be it some of it is tough to read as part of the story takes place during The Holocaust.
  • Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn: This book is darker than most of the books I read, but it was captivating in its portrayal of a broken marriage. I’d recommend it if you’re looking for something suspenseful.
  • Dark Places by Gillian Flynn: Although I liked Gone Girl more, this book was still a great read. However, I’m not sure I’d recommend it as it gets a bit grim and probably too vulgar.
  • Good Kids by Benjamin Nugent: A sort of coming of age book that follows an East Coast teen during his transition toward adult and the fall of his parents marriage. An interesting read, but not my favorite.
  • Evel Knievel Days by Pauls Toutonghi: A coming of age book about family, Egypt, Montana and everything in between. A slow read, but interesting.
  • What She Saw by Lucinda Rosenfeld: A coming of age book (I guess I have a thing for those) about adolescence, guys, self-image and self-worth. A light read, but entertaining – a great summer read.
  • Truth in Advertising by John Kenney: Currently reading, but I’m definitely enjoying it and reminded of my days at an agency.

Nonfiction/ Christian Reads

I’m not much of a non-fiction person. I never think about picking up a biography. Maybe, I should change that. Have you read an interesting biography lately? Nevertheless, these are the Christian-y books I have read or in some cases, I’m still reading.

  • A Hunger for God by John Piper: I never thought about fasting and this book really helped put it in perspective for me.
  • Every Good Endeavor: Connecting Your Work to God’s Work by Tim Keller: This will probably be one of the best and most helpful books I read all year. Such a helpful read on a proper view of work.
  • Gospel by J.D. Greear: I’ve been reading this for a loooong while. It’s good. Very basic. The formatting of it kind of bothers me, but it makes great points about the simplicity and beauty of the gospel.
  • Pray With Eyes Open by Richard Pratt: Taylor and I just started reading this one together, but so far it has been great too!

Garage Sale with Friends

Sorry, readers! I know my blog has been kinda silent this last week.

It was such a busy week full of preparing for our garage sale.

I was so amazed that my little 2-bedroom apartment could contain so much unnecessary junk.

We unloaded tons of stuff – old clothes, old decor I was tired of, coffee mugs that wouldn’t fit in the cabinets and tons of other “miscellaneous treasures” that won’t be making the trip to the west coast.

It feels so great to have decluttered our apartment. It’s probably something I should be in the habit of doing more often. Especially with our clothes! Who knew we had so much clothing to donate to others in need!?

I was so thankful to have friends that would allow me to host my sale in their garage as I don’t have a garage.

We had so much more fun spending time with friends and their ridiculously precious children.

I will miss them all so much.

Tailspin

I let my anxiety get the better of me for at least 2 whole days.

In my opinion, that is definitely 2 whole days too many.

I just got so overwhelmed with to do lists, timelines and all the planning that comes along with this moving season and I got stuck. Stuck in a tailspin in my mind. It was a terrible time really.

I knew I need to refocus myself on God’s goodness, his provision and my utter dependence on him. That’s what I always need and that’s what I’m always lacking when I feel my anxiety creep up on me.

Remembering that God is in control and that I am not is all I need in this season.

“And my God will supply every need of your according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:19

Amen.